resignation

On Surrender

On Surrender

There were days of outrage, when I didn’t want to feel at ease, or be responsible for my own peace and emotional state anymore. I got tired of being all spiritual and cool about it. I wanted to wrap my arms around my daughters when reading bedtime stories, or when they fell off their bikes. I fought peace itself because it felt wrong, and I ended up tight and angry and uncomfortable. I wanted to be petulant, so I was.